RELIEF FROM EXISTENTIAL ANGST = BLOGGING

BEGINNING OF  TRANSFORMATION 

HELLO ALL, MYSELF SAMEER , 31 , (INDIA )

DENTIST BY PROFESSION ,

FATHER AND HUSBAND BY SOCIAL NORMS , 

SPORTS LOVER BY FORCE OF NATURE &

BLOGGER BY ACCIDENT 

CONSIDERED MYSELF LUCKY IN MANY WAYS TO GET GOOD HEALTH , LOVING FAMILY ,GREAT FRIENDS AND YET FIND SOMETIMES MISFIT IN THIS WORLD WITH SO MUCH OF INSENSITIVITY EVERYWHERE ,FROM TV NEWS TO WORK IN OFFICE ,FROM PRESSURE FROM FAMILY AND SOCIETY TO TERRORISM AND POLITICS.

AND I TRIED HARD TO FIND ESCAPE FROM THIS FEELING OF HELPLESSNESS BY           SEARCHING FOR GOD (UNIVERSAL POWER ) TO SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCES

  (READING MORE THAN 100  BOOKS OF SAME GENRE IN LESS THAN YEAR TIME).

BUT ALAS, I GOT MUCH KNOWLEDGE ABOUT HUMAN PSYCHOLOGY BUT NO RELIEF OR ANSWERS WHICH I WAS SEEKING.

FINALLY ONE DAY , IN THE SPACE CALLED RESTROOM ,WITH COMPANY OF MY OWN , PRESSURE OF THAT ANGST GOT RELIEVED IN THE FORM OF WRITING .


I SHARED THAT PIECE OF WRITING WITH MY FRIENDS ,MOST OF THEM LIKED IT.

AND WITH THE SUGGESTION FROM ONE FRIEND I DECIDED TO START WITH THIS BLOG ,FOR THE PEOPLE WHEREVER IN THIS WORLD , WHO ARE AS SENSITIVE AS ME AND SEARCHING (SEEKING) FOR THAT SPACE WITHIN THEIR LIFE .

                              THIS ONE IS FOR YOU (EXTRA SENSITIVE ).

                              TIREDNESS OF IMMEDIATE PAST HAS NOT GONE YET,
                            INJURIES OF MIND HAS NOT HEALED YET..

                            FRUSTRATION AND HOPELESSNESS HAS GRIPPED MIND 
,
                                          LETHARGY  HAS FIXED  THE BODY ..

                        BOREDOM IS NOT ALLOWING TO DO ANY PLANNING FOR FUTURE .

                                  EVEN IN THIS DISGUSTING STATE OF BODY-MIND ..

                                                 I HAVE TO GO TO WORK..

                                                I HAVE TO DREAM HIGH...

                                          I HAVE TO KEEP SMILE ON MY FACE .. 

                                              I HAVE TO LOOK POSITIVE ..

                       I HAVE TO MOTIVATE OTHERS TOO, AS I HAVE AN IMAGE OF SAME.

                                                                     WOW...

                       YOU  (LIFE)  ARE MYSTERY ..  YOU ARE COMPLEX..

                  I BOW TO YOU AS I AM TIRED OF TRYING TO UNDERSTAND YOU , 

                                   AND WITHOUT TAKING PERMISSION FROM IT , 

                    I SURRENDER MY OVER-PUFFED EGO WITH A HOPE THAT 

                            YOU (LIFE) WILL BLESS ME WITH ENERGY 

                             REQUIRED  TO BREATHE AND TO BE BLISSFUL..

                            YOU WILL GRANT ME NECESSARY WISDOM 
                           TO PROTECT MYSELF AND MY LOVED ONES..
                     AND YOU WILL SHOW ME CLEAR PATH ON WHICH
                                I CAN WALK WITH COURAGE AND TRUST.

AS I AM ONE OF YOURS VIBRANT AND RESTLESS TINY PIECE.

SAMEER