#feeling Blue ... Try present Moment glue #

Hey there!
wherever you are ,you and me are connected with one of the dimension of life ,that is Time ,

On many occasions , Sadness, feeling of no control over life situations ,Emptiness ,Void come into our brain , we feel helpless and time seems to freeze.

But in those moments of blues , I remind myself all the happy things exist around me , my wife , my kid.

Me with BLESSINGS of My Life 

I try to divert my focus from past unfulfillment and future anxiety  to present moment.
I divide big tasks into small goals .
I divert my attention to body sensations.
I try to convince myself that we live one day at a time ,so don't take much stress/burden of whole world onto your tiny shoulders .

You are enough the way you are  , life is not about perfection .it's about progressive discovery of yourself .

Enjoy your journey ,don't take pressure /burden of Outcomes /Achievements
Recently I realize that we put lot of criterias in our brain to feel happiness ...
Its absolutely normal  to be average .less successful ,less fame ,less money ..

More important is How you feel about yourself .

This Life  journey has many twists and turns , Be a Witness ,Express your Feelings  wherever necessary and Enjoy this phenomenon called Life ....


To overcome feelings of blues .... dive deep and get glued to Present Moment ...

QUEST FOR DIVINE

Raise your hand if you believe in existence of GOD ?

Well, till the age of 27 ,my BRAIN was completely occupied with this belief that some higher power exists in sky which runs the world , which do justice according to people's deeds and who maintain  order in the world.

In 2014 ,one day suddenly my mind started asking questions on existence of that divine power ..

1.if there is GOD /DIVINE ,why so much crime in the world , specially terrorist can kill innocent children and any  man can rape innocent girl and go unpunished .

2. If he doesn’t exist ,then what is the meaning of this life ?

3.What should be the aspirations  in our life  money ,power or knowledge ?

And this intense pressure of inquiry was making me insane , I  had to find the answers to make myself feel sane .I had no idea from where will  I get all answers  and whom to ask , because my rational/egoistic   brain was not ready to bow down to  some GURU /MASTER .

So i started looking in to the books .

I was introduced  to spiritual book  BHAGAVAD GITA in childhood ,thanks to my  mother's devotional nature , so I read GITA  more than 100 times in span of 6 months ,but still not satisfied with all the answers .

Then to maintain balance of materialistic things I turned to modern day motivational and inspirational  books …..I read most of the  bestseller books .

few examples 
power of subconscious mind 
power of positive thinking 
power of thinking big
power of now 
awaken the giant within and many more

then,  Somehow I got to know about OSHO RAJNISH ,spiritual master … I read more than 10 books  of him and heard  more than 200 audio discourses..

after this my 80 percent doubts get  solved 

Still ,my 20 percent questions were present 

Then in 2015 came one book ,by Devdutt Pattnaik ,retelling of Bhagavad Gita

My GITA .

I preordered this book…

and I read this book in one shot within 2 days .

and I felt I received something which can help me to remain sane and able to give answers of all my questions related to world and divine .

So after reading many self help books , I can say that best ,which I have read is this book MY GITA 

let me share ,few main queries which I had .

          CRIME AND GOD

basic emotions which exists in all humans is fear and hunger

food and protection is  our basic need.

but we don’t trust other humans ,so humans in their imagination created god ,who validates them ,the way they are .so,god is just the product of human imagination ... Be aware of your idea of God .

crime was always there in the world ,because people with animal nature can become violent anytime .
one should remain very alert to protect oneself from many human animals out there .

         MEANING OF LIFE 

only humans seek meaning because that makes us validated and relevant through suffering .

human brain has special power to give meaning to anything.
inherently life has no meaning .

If you enjoy anything ,you will not ask for meaning , when you are in difficult situation in life ,you will try your best to make sense of life /that situation.

  Aspirations of life 

food ..survival ..self protection...
Body's basic needs .

once body's need gets fulfilled ,needs of brain takes the charge 
so we chase fame ,significance ,validation and much more 

based on one's nature people were classified into four groups in ancient INDIA 

4 varnas

kshatriya ..physically strong , protect society

brahmin ..intellectually strong ,instructs and guides society

vaishya ..who are good at trade ..exchange ..business..

shudras ….people who are emotional , serve the society ..

no matter what qualities one have, all types of people are needed in culture/society .

To summarize this quest ,I can say my mind exposed to many things in last 4 years which I was not aware about earlier ,and getting MY GITA  as a self-help book , I am more aware about each moment whenever I feel anxious ,frustrated or excited .

AND this book brings  immediate tranquility to my brain which helps me to keep going on with life .

WHAT YOU REALLY WANT ME TO DO?

“The capacity to learn is a gift; The ability to learn is a skill; The willingness to learn is a choice.”   

                 Brian Herbert

Krissh , 26 ,  a school teacher , was thinking to give up on his life!!
One evening after completing his school duties , he went to near by lake, to take final call on his life . Losing father at young age of 17 and subsequent responsibilities of family income made him give up on his dream of becoming doctor and had to go with less respectful ( that's what he thought), but easy and secured income generating government job of primary school teacher ...Since last 5 years he was doing this job with bitter taste of life. He didn't had many friends because he was not comfortable to share his agony with anyone, as most people would either easily judge him or give him lecture about morality and karma kind of things ..

Before 2 years, when he had marriage proposal , which his mother selected , the girl rejected him by saying that his looks and personality are ordinary . Again this gave a fatal blow to his self confidence. Since that incident he stopped interacting  with his colleagues too.
Meaninglessness and hopelessness were his constant companions , he didn't know what to do with his long pending life. He was shouting from inside, someone please release me from this prison..

"Only you can break this prison, my son "
Someone put a hand on his shoulder. Krishh turned back to the man , who had long beard, almost bald  with few white hairs, an  old man stood smiling at him..

Yes, who you are ? Did you just say something??

I said.. Only you can break this prison .

Did you read my mind, asked Krishh with shocking expression.

No.. I just heard your thoughts.

How come  you do that? Who are you ? What you want from me?

I will tell you all answers if you walk with me on lake side..

Krishh agreed and both started to walk by lake side .

Myself Mohan, 64 ,retired bank manager. I stay nearby this lake in a small house, enjoying best time of my life. What else do  you want to know?

How can you hear someone's thoughts? Where is your family?

Just like any other skill, one can learn this skill too. In my family I have one son and daughter, both settled in united states,and  I lost my wife 6 years ago. So, since then,  I am living all alone.

Sorry to hear this mr Mohan . I can understand how it feels when we lose our loved ones.

Well, Krishh, no need to feel sorry, as It was not surprize for me to lose my wife. I was ready for  losses in life. People or things come and go, Just like  breeze..

That's easy to say, Mr mohan, at this age, but your response would be different  if you would have lost someone at young age like me..

Oh, then you must be valuing people more than anything else , isn't it .?

Of course..

Then, when did you last talk with your mother with a smile on your face? Have you been  able to overcome grief of your father's death? Did you realise that you have one mother who lost her husband too! Truth  is,  we only value people or things when we lose them or when we need them badly for our own benefits.



Mr. Mohan, you have no idea what I have gone through in life, so plz don't judge me.

I  am not judging you  young man!! I know  you have lost your father in an accident at 17 and you had to choose a  different career path.. And after that,you played  that accident in your mind again and again for last 9 years, and didn't even  notice any other gift of life.

Mr Mohan, when you get rejected by a girl based on look, then you find that just because of your profession , people don't like you and there is no end to misery of life .Life has been so rude with me

Krissh,   have you noticed, one of your colleague  is constantly trying  to talk to you and you avoid her because of so called misery of life... Isn't that being rude to her?

What we forget constantly is that people reject or accept us based on their worldview and expectations, it has nothing to do with who we are.

One two or even 100 rejections can not define you, unless you are willing to be defined by that .

Hmmm, I got your point mr Mohan ,but still, I am not getting the point of living life with so much of unpredictability and miseries .What exactly Life wants me to do?


My son, life doesn't want anything from you , It is you who want something from Life and by not receiving it , creating unnecessary troubles for yourself and people around you .

STILL , if i have to tell you in one word , what life wants us to do , is  to LEARN  ..

LEARN?? What is there to learn in life , Mr Mohan ? Everything is visible and open , isnt it?

Really ? That is the attitude of closed minded people. You better avoid it ..once you allow your natural inborn curiosity to develop and become student of life , you will fall in love with life and all miseries of yours will become lessons for you and other people.

do you know the art of communication ?
do you know how we  humans evolved ?
do you know how to avoid overthinking ?
do you know how to predict future health problems and  avoid them ?

There are so many skills to learn and with those skills we can make life  less painful, Healthy and celebrating .

But the problem  with our society is,

Nobody teaches us, that for Learning what we need is not a Degree or Money but Willingness and Curiosity ....and learning gives us the  fruits in so many ways ...


Good news is you can pass your knowledge and experiences to next generation ...

Krishh  :   But Mr MOHAN ..Life is so vast.. How will I adapt to it..?

That's beauty my son...Life is so vast... You can learn infinite  things.. Still life will have much to teach you ..

Can't you see krishh... People come and go.... Without our control....what we can do is create moments with them... Many of them....

LIFE IS MADE UP OF MANY MOMENTS ...


EXPERIENCE , OBSERVE , TRY TO UNDERSTAND   AND LEARN  ABOUT ARCHITECTURE OF WORLD , ABOUT OUR SUBJECTIVITY AND ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES BEHAVIOUR ...

THIS  IS WHAT I CALL FREE WILL....A PRECIOUS GIFT FROM LIFE.....

Keep yourself Busy in Learning things...

Right then Krishh, your long pending life is like an empty canvas ,waiting for you to fill colors in it ..

MONOLOGUE ... DRIVING AND HEALING FORCE FOR ME....

Today morning I reached my dental clinic with many to do tasks in my mind .

            Tasks which I hate to do .
ex..buying new SIM card , finding few documents of clinic for tax return purpose ..

but at same time I had few tasks in my mind which I love to do ,

ex, Preparing for upcoming toastmaster meeting , writing new blog..

and my mind was a BATTLE  ground about what to prioritise .

and then maid of our clinic came and I asked her to clean glass of centre table  because it was dirty  and I like cleanliness much .

and she said COLIN IS FINISHED..Immediately I had anger in my mind .
 when ?  why my junior doctor didn't inform me .?

How many things I need to look after ,already MY  brain has been filled with many tasks, 

I was feeling choked and frustrated , and I was like why things are not  happening in auto mode  and why I have to do things which I don't like .

Then immediately  I philosophise these incidents with MONOLOGUE  

one day just like this COLIN  bottle ,our life fluid will be over , and we will be like, No way ...

what ??  I am not going to see tomorrow ? but I have many things in my bucket list and I was not warned before ..This is not fair...

and nobody will be there to listen to you or to answer you back ...

Yes man..that's how it's going to happen for sure ....

Better you start living now, without expecting  that when life will be in auto mode then I will be happy to work.

Our world is a dynamic and diverse process ..it is fluid in nature ,  which is difficult to control ..hardly it will behave according to our individual imagination ..don't loose your mind for it ..

Life is a NONSTOP Drama , it goes on and on and on....

Passionately and Fearlessly express yourself MOMENT to MOMENT ..

Tragedy happens , Accidents happen , success happens , unwanted outcome(failure) happens

We continuously try to find formula /laws /rules to conquer life ..few succeed and many don't...
but who cares ?

 I guess things which  we CHERISH for long are mostly  unplanned ..
ex..friendship, love affair , surprise gifts , help from people whom you never know...

Amongst the chaos ,there is hidden order ..
                                                                CARL JUNG 

Man, who founded analytical psychology

People who like surprises ( I love them) should reduce their  expectations and start living life in it's unpredictability ..

We need to bring back innocence and ignorance of the child ,who was not sure about anything and was introduced to many new  things one by one and who has his own vision about everything and that too ,gets changed ,every time he meets another person with a different world view ...

Ordinary life is  Nirvana ..
                                OSHO RAJNEESH

RAJNEESH....READ HIM AND YOU WILL IMMEDIATELY GO TO NEXT LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS

"Laugh on your problems ,because they are also surprises of  life and they also won't last long "

REMEMBER THIS HEALING WORDS 

Don't take anything Personally..


Unconsciously we believe that we control our life ,but if we see carefully ,we have minimal control over our ever changing  body,mind and emotions AND almost No control over other people's behaviour , Nature ,Government , Politics ..then why we worry as if we are running the show ..

CHILL... if you succeed ..great ..celebrate ..if you fail ...remember ..nothing is permanent ...

LIVE LIFE AS IT COMES ...
                                  SHAKESPEARE 

READ ..POWER OF NOW BOOK..FOR MORE DETAILS 

For those who are lazy ..can see this video for same book review..it will help for sure ..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vmkYeI1xPDg&t=66s

so what next ?

start doing things which make you happy ,while doing it only...and do all other things with inner joy ...

Live life  with your own imagination without fear ,who knows what will happen ..I guess no One KNOWS  ,then why to take anyone advice ?

Money do produce emotions ,but MORE importantly our  emotions are closer to us then outside events or money ...so better take care of them first...

Start enjoying Creativity which is coming out of you , that's The junction between You and Divine....

Always remember ,sooner or later everything is gonna end ,so better you enjoy till COLIN bottle is full and till you have time & energy to Refill it ...

HOW TO BECOME SUPERHUMAN IN YOUR CAREER

"ASPIRE TO BE MORE THAN WHAT YOU ARE IS NATURAL TO HUMAN MIND  AND THIS INSTINCT HAS LEAD TO PROGRESS OF HUMAN WORLD .... BE IT PHYSICAL , MENTAL OR TECHNOLOGICAL"

But then question arises that why we have very few superhumans ,when everyone wants to be one .

There must be some separating line or qualities which Distinguishes An Average human and Superhuman.

Well, being sports lover I follow many such Superhumans who are at  Top in their Game and who are best in the world.

VIRAT KOHLI, MS DHONI (CRICKET )
ROGER FEDERER( TENNIS)
USAIN BOLT( ATHLETICS)

Many people , Like ME  want to know what they have special that make them unique from other Sports persons.

 I found few qualities ,which according to them is most important  Which they mention in their interviews.

  I am sharing one of my favorite

Read this .

"You need a set pattern of your training, the way you eat, how healthy and fit you need to be. Being fitter made me mentally stronger. It was like a direct connection," Kohli recalled.

"My training was horrible, I ate so bad, I was up until late, I was having a drink or two regularly. It was a horrible mindset. The season ended and I was so thankful it was over. I went home, came out of the shower one day and looked at myself in the mirror and said ‘you can’t look like this if you want to be a professional cricketer.’

Virat Kohli's fitness tale: Indian captain reveals how he became one of the fittest cricketers in the world

"For the first two months I felt I wanted to eat the bed sheet when I went to sleep because I was so hungry. I was craving taste. I was craving delicious food. But then I saw the results. I felt quick around the field. I would wake up in morning and feel like I had energy.

"From 2015 I changed my training again. I started lifting, snatching, cleaning and dead lifting. It was unbelievable. I saw the result. I remember running after a ball in a Test series in Sri Lanka and I felt more power in my legs. It was, like, 'wow'. This training is addictive. The last year-and-a-half it has taken my game to another level," he explained.

FOUR Laws which I can connect in my life/career ,out of this interview.


LAW 1. Power of Discipline

 Yes .this sound so obvious but Discipline is the highest virtue any human can  Practice and ripe its benefits lifelong.

LAW OF DISCIPLINE CONTAINS TWO SUB-LAWS

A.Power of Isolation

WE DEVELOP OUR TALENTS IN PRIVATE AND SHOW/PERFORM THEM IN PUBLIC

                                     

B.Power of Priorities

AS SIMPLE AS THAT 

LAW 2 :Wisdom of avoiding comparison

NO MATTER WHAT ,YOU NEED TO FOLLOW YOUR OWN GOALS AND JOURNEY 

LAW 3 : Art of listening to Body Mind

Although we can become superhuman ,still we need to remember that we are Fragile and Mortal.
so we need to save our self from overdoing .

BKS IYENGER , ONE OF THE FOREMOST TEACHER OF YOGA

LAW 4 : Art of saying NO

Due to our social conditioning And fear of losing friends or well wisher we tend to say unnecessary yes to all.

Take temporary  pain of NO or Take lifetime pain of Regret

SAY LIMITED YES AND YOU WILL LIVE HAPPY LIFE 

 AFTER knowing all this ..NOW WHAT ..

.I WILL END THIS  BLOG BY FAMOUS DIALOGUE FROM A HINDI MOVIE AGNEEPATH

• कोई कमजोर यह नहीं कह सकता की उसने पहेलवान को माफ़ किया , इसके लिए कमजोर का पहेलवान होना जरूरी है

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TO AAJ SE PEHALWAN (SUPERHUMAN) BAN NE KI MUHIM SHURU ..

P.S.
I joined Gym on the day I first got idea about this Blog..29/3/2018

WAKE UP... SISTER......

WE DON'T HAVE THIS KIND OF PHOTOS,BUT WE SHARE SUCH EMOTIONS

HEY,SISTER


I know you are going through tough phase where balance of work-social life-personal care has been disrupted due to too much responsibilities on your young shoulders after marriage .

Many times you have to behave according to other people's (in laws ) wish,which is not your natural style. You have to wear clothes which is not your choice and which doesn't suit your personality.

We both know that in our INDIAN culture ,we have to work really hard to please everyone ,not only in our family but other far far relatives too.In an attempt to not to hurt anyone , You have taken many blows on your mind.


Being  your elder brother and sensitive individual,I also don't like many our old rituals and formality centered behaviour. I know our society give more space to boys to express their emotions then girls, which I personally don't like and I always try on my part to bring this change ,wherever I can.

Unfortunately,INDIA is the biggest loser ,in providing enough opportunity to women till now

But my lovely younger  sister ,Rule of change is that we need to bring change within ourself first before bringing it outside.
         
I always want to see you happy and healthy ,because your unhappiness makes me uncomfortable and inability to interfere in your social life due to fear of consequences on our parent's life make me feel helpless many times.

Today I want to tell you that, you have to give birth to COURAGE in your being ,because our creator (GOD) has given this ability to give birth to life ,only to girls, then how can you be so weak , not to bring this change in your life on your own?

Nature/God's  most sensitive and caring yet highly vulnerable creation is woman , but the same sensitivity which is capable for nurturing life ,when needed can be transformed into strength of goddess KALI.

"DON'T LET YOUR SENSITIVITY TO BE PERCEIVED AS YOUR WEAKNESS." #mypersonalspaceforsensitivesoul

ENOUGH OF SOCIAL OBLIGATION,LIVE CAREFREE BY REACHING TO THE TOP

Time has come in our world when every girl needs to realize that,they are complete without any life partner.

"DON'T LET YOUR  HAPPINESS/HEALTH  BE DEPENDENT ON OTHER GENDER"

And SIS,

Do you remember, Me and You both have experienced  hostel life,where we learned to take total care and responsibilities  of our self when our parents were not there to protect us or take care of us.

We both have been gifted by caring and helpful parents and financial Problems throughout our life ,which we took as challenge and always worked hard to overcome them.

We  believed in meritocracy and never took shortcut in our life and achieved everything on our own (skill/talent ).

Time has come ,where life has given us enough experiences to face any challenges and now its up to us how we can shape our life.

Don't be like every other INDIAN GIRL, WHO happily remain victim throughout her life and be jealous of other successful woman.  NO...YOU NEED TO FIGHT ...


Don't you know life story of these women,who made big impact on whole world,make them your idols,read their biography ,about how they overcame tough phase and became inspirations for many.

THESE ALL ARE WOW WOMEN..YOU ALSO HAVE SAME ZEAL WHICH CAN MAKE YOU WOW..

Do you know only Indian players to won Olympic medals in badminton ,both are girls.(Saina Nehwal, P.V.Sindhu)

Saying all this thing , you need to remember , Personal growth will happen only when you will take ACTIONS(DECISIONS).

DECISION SHAPE OUR DESTINY ,TAKE ONE OF IT NOW

Start Your JOURNEY with  one decision ,that you are not going to succumb to any situations ,  
followed by improve your personality with DEEP KNOWLEDGE and  GREAT COMMUNICATION SKILLS.

DEEP KNOWLEDGE WILL EARN YOU RESPECT AND LOT OF POWER

ALL THE PROMINENT PERSONALITIES OF WORLD HAVE THIS SKILL,CHECK YOURSELF

Good news is ,you can learn all this skill ,because you have done this in past ,its time to Expand your Horizon and Imagine yourself as A Strong individual for that,

1.START READING BOOKS (start with WHO MOVED MY CHEESE?)

2.EDUCATE YOURSELF WITH NEW SKILLS (sharpen your teaching skill)

3.LEARN COMMUNICATION SKILLS (MOST IMP) (Internet has many videos on same topic)

4.Exercise  daily (Fit people have more advantage)

THIS IS THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO FOR YOURSLF

Have you Observed ,Its just because of lack of last skill ,you are not able to express your Emotions .


STOP WATCHING TELEVISION FOR ENTERTAINMENT ,TIME TO BE REALISTIC .

I know you watch many daily sop of BALAJI telefilms,which is not at all reality ,but  it also drains you of your vital energy.

I know you hate many females ,who are not of good nature,but did you pay enough attention, why they are doing that thing ,not because they love to be vamp,but because they never got chance to get enough education (like our parents) or they wasted opportunities after they got secured in life.

If you won't take actions/decision now, one day you will become like them.

                 
                   

ONE SENTENCE WHICH IS TIMELESS ..ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS.

There is no GOD  other than life .MAKE SURE YOU EXPERIENCE IT TO HIGHEST LEVEL.
               -OSHO RAJNEESH

YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN FREEDOM TO CHOOSE YOUR LIFE,CHOOSE BRAVELY.

Why I am telling you all these things , because I know  YOU well,You have many dreams which you want

to fulfill , but due to fear of society (what people will think ) leads to paralysis of action , addiction

 to comfort zone (security ) leads to PROCRASTINATION  and so called obligations to family 

and friends (leads to mediocrity)  is preventing you ,which you are not ready to accept .

TO LIVE LIFE WITHOUT REGRET ,IMMEDIATELY FOLLOW THIS

START TODAY,take that first step towards GOLDEN future for being  FINANCIALLY AND SPIRITUALLY INDEPENDENT human .


TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME. DON'T THINK MUCH ,JUST FOLLOW WHAT YOUR HEART SAYS ,BECAUSE IT ALREADY KNOWS WHERE TO LEAD YOU .

DEEPER TRUTH OF LIFE

AND YES, LAST BUT VERY IMPORTANT

DON'T TRY TO SEE WHOLE PICTURE ,IT WILL BECOME CLEAR ON ITS OWN TIME, YOU START ENJOYING JOURNEY OF NEW LIFE FROM HENCE ON WARDS ..

"IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP , WORLD CELEBRATES VICTORIOUS , NOT VICTIMS."

#mypersonalspaceforsensitivesoul



YOUR BROTHER,

WHO WANTS TO SEE YOU AS A BRAVE AND INSPIRATIONAL PERSON. #mypersonalspaceforsensitivesoul

A BORN WOMANIZER

             
                           HELLO THERE, TODAY IS INTERNATIONAL WOMEN'S DAY.

AND I WANT TO CONFESS SOMETHING TODAY, WHICH I WAS NOT ABLE TO SPEAK TO ANYONE

                                                      WELL , THE CONFESSION IS ,

                            I AM A BORN WOMANIZER AND I AM PROUD OF THAT..


BORN WOMANIZER !!!! YES ,YOU READ IT CORRECT

#MY FIRST TOUCH TO WOMAN#

August 21, 1986   On this day first women came in my life. 

I didn't know the name of that woman at that time, but she was very caring .

whole day she was with me, whenever I cry for various reason , she immediately take me in her hands ,hugs me, kisses me and then allow me to drink milk from her breasts.

She pampers me, cleans my foul smelling ,different color and consistencies Potty.

No matter whether it was a midnight or early morning ,

weather she was tired or sleepy ,she was always ready to make me feel secure ,safe and satisfied.

As I Grew up, I started calling her MAMMY(MOM) , she always used to remember which kind of food I am fond of and even remind others too,with proud that her son is so special and he has very particular choice in all things.

when we used to travel in State bus ,which didn't had AC or any other cooling devices , I used to beat her, out of irritation from heat, but she never beat me in return ,neither she complained that it was my fault..I never understood why she was behaving like that.

13th dec 1988 ,another woman came in my life, I didn't know her name too, still whenever anyone wants to play with her , I  used to become so possessive and angry and won't allow anyone to come near her.

As i grew i got to know that ,she is my sister and that too younger , so I  have to look after her and protect her . But   I used to play with my cousin brothers and whenever we cousins had  a fight ,out of 

my inability to express my anger to elder and powerful cousins, I vent out my anger on my sister. she used to cry but never ever she told me that she hates me.

#A WAY OF HINDU TRADITION TO KEEP BONDING OF SIBLINGS ALIVE# 

As we both grew up , when she started living in a Hostel , I realised how  delicate and wonderful she is , she always support me in fight between me and my father. I never understoond why she was behaving like that.

#A WAY TO CHECK STRENGTH OF  THAT BONDING#

17th sept 2003 , I entered in college life (DENTISTRY) with many fantasies in my mind . I always love to be in girls company ,and I never feel ashamed of that ,though most of my colleagues (boys) didn't like that.

I used to talk with all girls in my class with equal interest , and give respect to all. I had attraction to one or two of them , but  I didn't find any emotional connection with any .

17th feb 2005, out of playing some random game , I wrote a letter to one of a girl of my batch about what I like about her and I considered her as my best friend .After that day , we started reading together in Library  . We talked for hours , I didn't know till then how to talk with girls (AS I studied in boys school only). She taught me about Dressing sense (to be honest , I had pathetic dressing sense before that ).

We used to discuss about our childhood days . I from kind of bitter mindset (because of traumatic /poor child hood ) and she from extra sweet mindset . Her extra caring nature removed painful memories from my mind. Whenever she was late for any outing  we used to plan, I used to shout on her a lot ,still on next day ,she used to bring CHOCOLATE and an  apology later .

whenever I asked her about why she care for me a lot , didn't YOU have  fear of breakup or my affair with other girl?

#ME with my ONE and only woman of BEDROOM and BATHROOM# DR AVNI SHAH  ...#mypersonalspaceforsensitive soul

and she used to tell me that she has 

trust on me , that too, BLIND ONE

This one sentence ,gave me tremendous courage and strength in my life to fight many battles.

I didn't understand till date ,from where did she bring that TRUST?

BABY SHOWER ..background was designed and created by TO BE MOM...she is super duper  creative..

.# 7 YEARS.. POST MARRIAGE # STILL COLOURFUL AND GLOWY#

On, 24 th jan 2017 ,one more woman came in my life , when I was struggling with my professional career, not able to present my self in best way to my patients and students . when I had many ideas but not able to execute them in proper manner because of lack of organisational power of brain.. One girl with infinite enthusiasm and super creative zeal met me in my working place.
In initial days , I used to talk less with her  ,because of my inner struggle.as days passed on , I STARTED noticing  that due to her extraordinary ability to manage schedule and put things in proper order, everything started working in my favour and became easy for me. Then we both started sharing our common creative ideas . Due to her one line " I WILL MANAGE ,SIR" I used to sleep well.
 HER dedication and passion towards work , reignite my inner fire which i lost somewhere due to overburden or may be due to too much negative experiences.
APART FROM passion , her SUPER AMAZING KNOWLEDGE OF ONLINE MARKETING AND DOING THINGS IN INTERESTING MANNER , last one year was a wave of  unfolding of many talents and skills from my side, which I never thought i would be able to do.

We had many fights , but she never allow those problems to come in between work and commitment towards students .
Whatever I am writing on this blog is all because of her .Starting from technical knowledge about blogging to providing motivation about writing , I owe her a lot.

whenever , I ask her why she is doing all this for me, she used to say  'BECAUSE ,SIR I WANT WHOLE WORLD TO KNOW ,HOW GOOD A TEACHER AND WRITER YOU ARE".
I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHAT I DID TO GET HER FROM UNIVERSE .

#GIFT FROM UNIVERSE# Dr starry john #  

So , from my birth to this women's day , I have always been surrounded by women.

From satisfying my physical hunger to providing me safety,

from accepting me with all flaws of mine to enhancing my career to new heights.

everywhere I have been EMPOWERED by WOMEN.

ONE OF THE  MOST INFLUENTIAL SPIRITUAL MASTER AND MYSTIC  

OSHO RAJNEESH SAID ONE THING ABOUT WOMAN ,WHICH I HAVE EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE.

WHO ARE WE (MEN) TO EMPOWER , TO  ONE WHO IS EMPOWERED BY GOD #my personal space for sensitive soul

# From childhood to youth to old age , i believe this sensitive side of god (woman) makes life worth living #

I love all the women , who made me human from instinctive animal, who gave meaning to my life.

I am no one to empower you , WHAT I can do is ,  to SHOW RESPECT ,CARE ,LOVE AND PRAY for  masterpiece of our creator.


#LOVE UNIVERSE# LOVE WOMEN#WOMANIZER#mypersonalspaceforsensitivesoul